...No...No...No...

no... no i dont really want to... Sorry...

Dreams do come true.... right?

...she can't look at him so she keeps staring at the ground feeling her cheeks heat up. Suddenly she feels his firm but gentle hand lift her head up so they're facing each other and only for a second that feels like a whole eternity a jolt shoots through her body as their lips barely meet. He begins to pull away but she throws her arms around his neck before he can stand again and pull him into a deep passionate kiss. Everything around her disappear and she only feels his lips pressed against hers and his arms warped around her waist...
...as she starts to breath regular again she feels the pouring rain on her bare arms and she starts to shiver in his arms. She looks up at him and their eyes meet as he wraps his arms tighter around her. He kisses her forehead and quietly whispers "I love you". Her cheeks starts to heat up more and he smiles that smile worth dying for. He softly kissed her blushing cheeks and then her trembling lips. She closes her eyes and wish with all her might that this moment will last forever...

Would you...?

What would you do if i lied on my bed crying?
Would you hold me and tell me everything will be alright?
What would you do if i hurt myself?
Would you stop me and tell me that i'm being stupid?
What would you do if i told you to kill me?
Would you refuse and tell me there's no chance in hell?
What would you do if i really wanted to die?
Would you force me to keep on living, tell me that there's a point in living and be by my side, watching over me so that i wont do anything stupid?
Or would you simply just turn around like you never knew me because you have your own problems to deal with?
Or maybe you'd tell me to keep on living because you cant live without me.
I wouldn't dare to kill you... because i love you to much... and i want to be with you every second of every day... and when we're apart i'd miss you with every fiber in my body...
Is it wrong to think the world would be better without me here?
There's so many questions... and i got no answers...
I just know that i'll keep on living, because i'm afraid of what i might miss... i want to set an example for the next generation to follow... and if i give up on my life now... they wouldn't have anything to follow...
It's hard being far away from you... it's hard to know that you're with someone ells in staid of me... Because i want to be with you so bad...
Then again... am i really good enough for you...? i wonder...
would you love me... like i love you... if you knew...

Fat, Friends and Computers

Whoppie!
My little brother and a guy who i though was one of my best friends were standing and yelling at me that i'm fat today... really fun when you're alreadu paranoid over your weight... Yes! Way to go selfasteem boost! So I'm pretty pissed... i dont feel like doing anything exept throwing toms coputer ouf of the window on the tower down to the driveway :3 that's a nice fall of 5-7 meters o: i think it will break right?
I'mma go eat... this fat lady is hungry so stay out of the way!

No more

Give me back those days that I had to cry over you
Give me back those days that I had to miss you
Give me back those days that I had to sit up and wait for you
Give me back those days that I had to spend alone because of you


I'll tell you now
No more crying, I'm done waisting my tears on you
No more missing, I have better things to do
No more waiting, it was already killing me
No more alone, now that I know I can move forward.


But before I leave, please, give me back my shattered heart
You don't deserve to keep the pieces.

Have you ever felt like dying?

Have you ever felt like crying?
Crying so bad that you'll cry until you don't have anymore tears to cry
Have you ever felt like flying?
Flying away so that nobody could catch you or make you do anything
Have you ever felt like lying?
Lying so that they would never know what's really going on inside of you
Have you ever felt like dying?
Dying so that you don't have to feel the pain that runs though your vains
Could you tell me?
Have you ever felt like dying so bad that you've stood on a building looking down at the tiny people so innocently concerned about their own daily problems that they don't have time to look up and notice that there's a person standing on top of a building ready to jump, ready to throw their life away because they cant stand the pain anymore.


Please tell me.... or is it just me?

Headache

Woho for headaches!
Nothing fun happened today... woke up around 10, got up, got dress, I'm pretty smexy today if I get to brag :3 and went to school. Had my classes and then went to the buss and went with Abe and Mike and had a good time on the buss, which was in a traffic jam, talking about world of warecraft aka wow (omg i hate that fucking game!)and then i had a walk from the buss stop to mediamarkt where I waited for mom to show up so we could look at a computer. I did find one that I like and I did buy a game (Sims 3 dream job) but they didn't have the computer in stock so that blew up, but i did find it on some other stores so I'll probably go to another store to buy it. :D
and i have a headache... omg the headache o.o and now i think I'll go to bed... I'm so tired... good for me that i don't start school until 2.30 pm tomorrow :3 then I can sleep in~

new addiction btw -> Mad World

Laters~

Not exacktly here

Okay because some people think that it's getting bothersome that I never update my blog, I'll do that right now.
I haven't really felt like writing and I don't really have anything to talk about so I'll just type down random shit that's up right now and if you don't like it well... sucks to be you :]
School started last week how about that... To be honest, I've kinda missed school, it gets you into routine and you have something to do all day and don't have to worry about what you're going to do.
I'm like tired... Always o.o I guess i sleep to much >.> or just have weird sleeping hours but I'm always tired. And you know one thing that keeps nagging the crap out of me? I hate sleeping alone. I noticed this after my cousin slept here for 3 nights, when she was gone I couldn't sleep.


Ugh i need a boyfriend >.>

What's your Deadly Sin?

Greed:	High
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Very High
Sloth:	High
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	High
Pride:	Very High

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Day 17

Travemünde –> Stockholm
Okay, so we didn’t get any breakfast on the boat because it was too expensive so we drew for like an hour and then we stopped and got breakfast. Then we had to stop again because everybody had to go to the bathroom. But when we got to the gas station it was unmanned so it wasn’t a bathroom there so we had to go to another place to go to the bathroom, a whole lot driving around for just one rest stop.
Then we drew on, next stop was next to a red lake in Småland. I promise the bottom of the lake was brick red and the water was so nice. I wish I could have dived in and swam for a while but we had to keep going. Next stop was at a motel/restaurant with a really nice salad, I had an ice cream too. Then we drew for a while and listened to the Netherland – Slovakia game on the radio but I fell asleep because nothing happened. Then my dad starts yelling at me that I’ll get a headache if I sleep like that and then I couldn’t sleep anymore.
So that’s it people, I’m home now and if you want to see any pictures from the trip just ask me, I have loads. But I’m not going to upload any of them, I’m too lazy.

Day 16

Adenau –> Travemünde
Boring day, the only thing that really happened was that we were on a tank museum in Munster. It’s was kind of interesting to see all those old tanks. If you want pictures just send a message to Tom, he has like a 100 pictures from the museum.
That’s pretty much all we did all day, except for sitting in the car all day.

Day 15

Adenau
Nothing special happened today, we met up with a family friend at an old-timer mc-race and watched old mc that I’m still amazed over how they’re still running. We had lunch there and I got two slushy’s! One with cherry taste and one with blueberry taste, my lips, my teeth and my tongue were blue after that slush, it was so much fun. Then we had dinner with some friends at a really nice place, and the food, I mean my food was so good. I had Norwegian salmon, it was amazingly good. I tell you, I’ve never had so good salmon before. Then back to the hotel bar to have a drink and now to bed. You know what? I’m just going to watch another episode of friends before I hit bed. No I’m not at all addicted to watching friends, I promise!

Day 14

Adenau
Have you ever heard of something as stupid as Midsummer Day? Well it’s today and god damn it my mom wanted me to put on a dress! But I sneaked out of it and I and Tom decided to go swimming at the swimming hall here in Adenau, it was really fun and now I’m a little bit more tanned then I was before and my hair looks really blond.
Then we went to the hotel and sat and had lunch with a friend of mom and dad and watched a football match on TV. I can’t remember which teams were playing but anyhow. After that we went back to the room and got ready for a BBQ at a friend’s house, I didn’t eat anything because I had too much to eat at lunch so I was already full. But it was nice, we talked and laughed and listened to great music. When the sun set I got really tired so dad came with me and Tom to the hotel room to let us in because we only have one key so, if we had taken the keys mom and dad wouldn’t have come in. And guess what I did when I was back at the room? I watched some more friends! And then I fell asleep, fun day huh?

Day 13

Munich –> Adenau
Today was so much fun! First when we got up they went down to get some breakfast and I stayed on the room because I didn’t feel like eating. When they came back my mom had a sandwich for me with nut-cream on, it was so awesome! Then when we had packed our things into the car we went to BMW Welt and the BMW Museum, which was awesome too. They have so much cool things there, I tell you Munich is a shit town but it’s worth going there just to go and see BWM Welt and the museum. And, from the bridge between BMW Welt and the museum you could see the Olympia stadium. It’s a really cool building actually. After the museum we drew to Dachau to see the former concentration camp. I got really sad being there because of its history and that stuff so I didn’t want to go around so much but you should have see the size of that place, oh my god, and can you believe that there were like 200,000 people that had to work and die there just because of the Nazis? It’s sick and I know that there are places like Auschwitz but I haven’t been there so I don’t know how it looks but from the look of Dachau that was one of the first camps so it became a model for how the concentration camps were suppose to look.
After Dachau we headed towards Adenau. We stopped two timed because it’s quite a long trip. At the first stop we had toilet break and bought some chips, at the next stop it was McDonalds and we had dinner. I’ve missed the McFeast so much, yeah I’m crazy but before we left I was in a McFeast hole and I had eaten a lot of McFeast. Then when we finally got to Adenau the receptionist said that they had moved us to another room, or it was actually a apartment with three rooms so me and Tom have separate rooms and mom and dad are staying in the room with the double bed, it’s a really cool apartment.
Then I couldn’t sleep so I watched friends until I fell asleep. Which I know was after 2 o’clock.

Day 12

Innsbruck –> Munich
This day started pretty good but ended in disaster!
So, we headed off towards Munich and I got to sit in the front seat! Woho! First and last time ever on this trip… anyhow, it was a really “Schöner Straße” As my dad keep nagging about, and his damn “Gemüse”! I tell you, it’s really getting on my nerves.
When we at last came to Munich we had to drive to 4 different hotels before we decided to go to tourist information because every damn hotel was full. The lady on the tourist information said that they had a family room at a “Gast House” near the Olympia Park, so we said ok. It’s just that when we came to the right address it was a “Jugen Gast House” which is like a hotel for kids under 18 that are on a school trip or something. So both my mom and dad were really disappointed, well, I was disappointed too, I mean who wants to stay at a hotel that looks like the army/a concentration camp? Plus that there were like 10-20 school classes staying there as well so I had to sleep with my ear plugs to get some rest. I didn’t get any rest anyhow because the beds were so damn uncomfortable.
And as the icing on the cake, we had to walk around in like an hour and a half to find a restaurant and when we found one we got an idiot for a waiter. And the food wasn’t that great either. But at the end of dinner we got another waiter and he was funny and kind of cute.
Then we took the subway back to our stop and stopped at a bar and watched the end of the football match between Germany and Ghana. It was a good game and a nice drink and really annoying German football fans.

Day 11

Venice –> Munich
Okay, so we didn’t get all the way to Munich so we stopped at Innsbruck and stayed there for the night, the hotel was really great, it was an apartment with two rooms so I didn’t have to sleep in the same room as dad, yey! He snores pretty much so. Yeah I don’t want to sleep in the same room as him. The dinner was great too.
So I guess you could say it was a succeeded day. It was nice weather for once too, so the Italian trip wasn’t a total waist, I didn’t get the tan I wanted but I was only out in the sun for like 45 minutes so, it doesn’t count.

Day 10

Venice
So we took the boat-buss into Venice today, it was pretty nice even though it was raining back and forth all day. I bought a carnival mask and the necklace Arwen gives to Aragon in the fellowship of the ring, Evenstar. It’s so pretty!
The lunch was pretty good too, but it was expensive, I tell you, don’t eat lunch in the middle of Venice while it’s tourist season, but on the other hand, everything was kind of expensive in Venice.
Nothing exiting happened today other then that I had a huge pain in my feet after all that walking.
Oh yeah, and we had a awesome dinner at a Chinese restaurant, that was the best restaurant so far!

Day 9

Venice (Lido)
Rain, all fucking day!
How fun do you think it is to be in Italy when it’s raining? Not so much, there’s nothing to do! So when mom, dad and Tom decided to take the car and look at the island I stayed at the hotel and watched Friends. When they came back they decided that we had to eat lunch so I went with them into town and we had pizza and bought some snacks. Then back to the hotel and watching Friends again. Then we had dinner that was really gross and then more Friends and then sleep, fun day in Venice right?

Day 8

Berchstesgaden –> Venice
So we decided not to go to Wien because I and Tom didn’t want to go there. So we drew over the Grossglockner passage and it was 2504 m high and it was snow and +2C, It was fun but scary at the same time because it was misty as hell up there. I and Tom threw snowballs! Then on the way down it wasn’t as misty so it wasn’t that scary, and then we continued towards Venice.
When we got to the ferry that was going to take us to the island where we were going to live called Lido, the weather was really unstable and the clouds were really cool, by the time we got to Lido it was raining.
We drew though all Lido to the hotel that was on the opposite side then the ferry terminal. Then we had dinner and had a little walk to see where we were staying. It’s a really nice island, if it’s not raining.

Day 7

Berchstesgaden
We were up in the Eagles Nest today. It was so awesome although when we came up it was super misty. But after lunch it started to clear up so we could see all the way to Salzburg! Then when we came down again we had to talk back to a cable railway thingy, you know with a cabin where you sit and it takes you up and down? Anyhow, we walked over 13,000 steps that day, I had such sore muscles in my legs when we got back to the room.

Day 6

Prague –> Berchstesgaden
Damn it! My stupid little brother wants to go to Berchstesgaden so we’ve pouched forward the Venice trip. The place we stayed in was pretty nice, it was a old house up on a hill or at the wall of a mountain, I don’t really know. But mom, dad and Tom went to eat some dinner and I stayed at the room and watched friends because I didn’t feel so well. Then mom came back and gave me a nuggets burger, it was really nice. And then we slept.

Day 5

Prague
Okay, so Prague is a boring town, we woke up at like 11, slept for 11 hours which was really nice, and now I’m hells tired so I’m going to head to bed now instead of sit up. We had a private guide today and he was alright although he smoked a lot and made me like, really want to have a cigarette but I managed and I think it’s good because that means that I’ve really quit smoking. After the tour of the city we had like a hour of free time before it was time to head to dinner, so I went to look at some cloths at New Yorker and decided that I have to shop at New Yorker when I get home again. Then we headed to the meeting point and a car picked us up and drew us to the boat where we had a different view of the city and ate really gross food. Back at the hotel I chatted some with my friends and I realized that they don’t have to send me text messages to let me know that they miss me, they can just tell me over msn. So I’m happy again and tomorrow we’re going to Venice.

Day 4

Berlin -> Prague
Okay, so today really sucked. Got in the car around noon and then sat in the car to Dresden and ate and then sat in the car for way to long and finally arrived at Prague at around 7 pm. We relaxed at the hotel for a while and then went to a nearby restaurant to eat. The food was awesome and the service was nice.  Our waiter was so cute!
Tom got a text message from a friend today that said that he missed him. I wonder if I’ll get any messages from friends that’ll say that I’m missed back home…

Day 3

Berlin
The stupid, annoying hotel phone woke me up this morning. Mom called. At 8 fucking am, just to say that its 8 o’clock and that they’re going down for breakfast soon. So yeah, we went down and ate and decided that we should take a tourist bus and then go to a museum called “The Story of Berlin” the bus ride was nice, except that it was freezing, I got some great pictures at some nice places. When we got to the place of the museum with the bus we decided it was time for lunch, the food there was awesome, but the service was crap. Then we went in the wrong direction when we looked for the museum but we found it.
It was a cool museum, all about the history of Berlin, 800 years to be exact. We even went down a nuclear bomb shelter. I tell you, I do not want to spend any time at all in that bunker, god, I would go insane right away.
After the tour in the bunker we walked to a café and had a coffee and some cakes. Then we took the subway back to the hotel and tried to decide which restaurant to go to. We picked one that was just over the street. It was pretty nice, the waitress was hot and the food was awesome.
And when I was in the lobby chatting with some friends I saw a mouse outside the window, it was so tiny and cute!!

Day 2

Travemünde -> Berlin
God damn it… I didn’t get any sleep at all so this day is going to suck, Tom were sleeping in the car from the time we left the boat. I really like the nature in Germany. It’s always so green here. It goes well with Owl City in the headphones. “Oh darling I wish you were here…”
One thing that’s been bothering me is the Netherlander license plates, they’re yellow!  At least in the back, haven’t seen the front yet so I don’t know about that.
Talk about Germany and Autobahn, my dad is driving in like, 180 km/h and then we have to leave the highway to move onto another one, and the speed in the turn is like 80 km/h and it feels like its 30 km/h. Do you understand the feeling I’m searching for? On the other hand my dad is a crazy driver so it’s really hard to sit in the backseat and type at the same time as he’s driving. I hope we get to Berlin soon. And I hope it doesn’t rain all day. I want sun so I can get a tan and get home a bit tanner then before, I’m so pale that it’s scary.
We stopped to eat in a small town that I can’t remember the name on which was just right outside Berlin. It was a nice pizza I tell you, yummy. Tom had to take half of it with him because the waitress wouldn’t let us go without it.
When we came to Berlin we went to Tourist information Brandenburger Tor to get a map and book a hotel. And you know what we saw? A fucking BMW z8!! That’s like the most uncommon BMW you can find, I mean I don’t even think that that car can be found in Sweden, so that was epic. And we saw a Hummer H1 limo that you could rent for about €10/person for 45 minutes.
After the tourist information we went to the hotel. It’s a nice hotel and all, but you only get free internet in the lobby so that sucks.
After we’d moved all our bags to the rooms we decided to go see the Berlin wall and Checkpoint Charlie. Then we found a nice café and watched the F1 race, awesome btw that they showed F1 because we all wanted to see that race. After that we headed back to the hotel, I stayed on the room playing Step Mania and watching FRIENDS and Tom went down to the lobby to annoy the people there. The beds here are pretty nice which is good because we’re staying here another night.
It’s not awesome weather here either, but as my dad said “we’re not sweating and we’re not getting wet, so it’s all good”

Day 1

Stockholm -> Malmö
Sitting in the car half of the day wasn’t such a success. Mom woke me up at about 9.30 and said that I couldn’t sleep anymore because we had to get ready to leave. I ate breakfast with my brother and then I took out the cloths that I was going to take along. I packed it in a bag and started to put things on my bed that I wanted to take along on the ride like my gameboy, my psychology books, some crossword puzzles and my computer. When I was ready my dad hadn’t even begun to pack his things, which wasn’t something new because he always does that, when everybody ells is finished then he can start to get ready.
We were in the car around 1 and were heading down towards Malmö. We stopped after just 30 minutes to buy lunch at McDonalds. After that there were like, 3 hours of driving down to Jönköping where we had our second stop, mom and dad wanted coffee, like I’m surprised they didn’t stop sooner. Anyhow, we got down to Malmö and had dinner at some random place, I don’t know how they found it because I was busy playing Step Mania. The food look like something you find in a school cafeteria, I mean, I’m on vacation from school I don’t want to eat school food when not it school. Well, at least it didn’t taste like it looked so it was alright. Then we got onboard the boat mom and dad went to the bar and I and my brother stayed in the cabin watching TV.

Vacation

So I'm leaving for Germany tomorrow, or, rather later today because it's 00.35, but what ever :]
This vacation is going to be awesome :D We're taking the car, and first we're going to Malmö to take the boat over to Travemünde and then we're going to stay in Berlin. After Berlin we're going to Prague, Vienna, Venice, Munich and then Hamburg :]  It's gonna be awesome :D
Hope that everything will be fine at home and with everybody, I'll miss you so much :D See you in 2 weeks
Kisses

Idea Drought

I have nothing to write about, my inspiration is totally lost. o.o it's like, scary o: Common it cant be that hard to just type down something o.o Anyhow, just wanted to post something just to let you know that I'm alive :]
Kisses

Back from Germany

Hello people out in the Internet world :]
I were in Germany for 5 days and I was gonna tell you about it but I dont feel like it >.> sowwy :D
Love you<3

The Ultimate spotify test!

This is what you're supose to do: Take the list that you think is best, It must have over 24 tracks and press "shuffle" then press next and enter the song name!


1. How are you today? 
The Things We Owe - Takida

2. Will you get far in life?
Farytale - Alexander Rybak

3. How is school for you? 
Viva Forever - Spice Girls

4. What is your life's theme song? 
Can not Help Falling In Love - A*Teens

5. What is your life story? 
Socker(suger) - Kent

6. What does your future hold? 
The Climb - Miley Cyrus

7. What about your tomorrow? 
Butterfly - Crazy Town

8. What is the best thing about your friends? 
FF - Kent

9. What song describes you best? 
True to Me - Metro Station

10. What is your life like right now? 
Dale - D'Nash

11. Which song will be played at your funeral? 
Fireflies - Owlcity

12. What were you like as a child? 
Halfway Around The World - A * teens

13. Who will you marry? 
Gomenasai - t.A.T.u

14. How does the world look at you? 
Loco - D'Nash

15. What do your friends say about you? 
Pärlor(pearls) - Kent

16. Do people secretly fantasize about you? 
Keep on Moving - Five

17. Will you ever have children? 
So Sick - Ne-yo

18. What song describes the person you are attracted to? 
Monster - Itchy Daze (lolz xD)

19. How you will be recognized by the people? 
See you again - Breathe Carolina

20. What is your philosophy of life? 
Alien - Tokio Hotel

21. What do your parents think about you? 
Dom Andra(The others) - Kent

22. Do others think that you are attractive? 
Duett - Kent

23. What will you say when you break up with someone? 
Goodbye - Miley Cyrus

24. What do you think about sex? 
Hollow Years - Dream Theater






I'm sorry, but I was bored :3

Anger

Have you ever been so mad at someone that you felt like kinging the crap out of them? I know I have... It's not a pleasant feeling right? Have you ever been so mad at a friend that you felt like kicking the crap out of them? I am. And that's a even worse feeling. That you know that you've told them that you've been hurt before and then they go and hurt you the exact same way... It's just not something you do... Not to a friend... Right? I've always thought that friends listen to each other and take in what they say and try their hardest to help them out of difficult situations... No put them back in the same situation that they've been avoiding... It's not something a friend do. And that means that that friend is not a friend anymore.
I was so mad that i almost couldn't hold my tears back. It was so hard that when I got out of sight from a crowd I felt like hitting something. My knuckles were white when I got back home.
No way I'm forgiving this one in a long time... I don't know if i can trust my friends anymore. I don't know what I can tell them and what I can't. They might use it against me some day...
I don't want to get hurt like this again... That's all I know... So I think I'm going to have a hard time opening up to someone again...

Pain

You would not belive the pain I'm in right now...
Please... 
Make it go away...
The pain is riping me apart from the inside...
Please...
Make it go away...
You have to save me from this awful pain...
Please... 
Make it go away... 
You could never imagine the pain I'm in... 
Please...
Make it go away...
I cant take this any longer...

100 truths about me.

LATEST:
Drink:  Fanta Exotic
Phone call: Mom
SMS: Sebbe
Song you listened to:  Forget my Name – New Found Glory
Time you cried: Can’t remember…

HAVE YOU EVER:
"Dated" someone twice: No, but once. And he’s still nagging me about the second one. D:
Had someone cheating on you: I rather not think about it…
Been in love? I’m not sure.
Lost a special person: Yes.
Been depressed: For a very long time…
Been so tired that you fell asleep sitting up: Indeed I have. :P

YOUR THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
Color 1: Blue
Color 2: Purple
Color 3: Lime Green

THIS YEAR YOU HAVE:
Got to know a new friend: A lot of them.
Had your heart broken: No.
Laughed so that you have started to cry: Yup, many times.
Met someone who changed your life: Yuch :D
Realize who your true friends are: I still don’t know what a true
friend is. I think all my friends are true friends. 
Found out that someone has talked about you: Yeh :s People tend to talk about me a lot :3
Kissed a friend: No I don’t think so. 

MIXED:
How many of your MSN buddies, have you met: Almost all of them.
How many children do you have: none?
Do you have any pets: Nope.
Want to change your name: Sometimes. But I like my nicknames so I’m fairly happy with my name
What did you do during your last birthday: I opened presents and went to
school and then I got home, then I went to ensemble and then my dad came
and picked me up and we went shoping for some groceries and then we
picked up sushi and ate at home and then I packed a bag and then I went
to sleep. Oh yeah I was some on the net talking to a lot of friends too
:D
What time you woke up today: I think I woke up around 7.
What did you do yesterday around midnight: Slept? :]
Something that you yearn for: You…
Last time you saw your dad: This morning.
One thing you would like to change about your life: I really don’t know what I would change atm, I’m pretty
happy with who I am right now.
What are you listening to right now: My annoying teacher.
Have you ever talked to a person named Jens: I have.
What makes you irritated right now: That I miss someone that I don’t think I’ll be able to meet for a long time.
What is your name: Isabelle
Single / Busy: Single
Star sign: Taurus
Boy or girl: I’m not a girl, not yet a woman.
Elementary School: Hässleby Villastads skola and Spånga Gymnasium och Grundskola
High School: Kunskaps Gymnasiet I Kista + IT-gymnasiet Sundbyberg. 
College: -
Hair: Blond.
Long or short: Fairly Long.
Length: 163cm (5’3ft).
What do you like about yourself: That I’m almost always happy and
I love my stubbornness :]
Piercings: Ears
Tattoos: No
Right or left: Right. 

YOUR FIRST:
Operation: -
Piercings: Right and Left ear
Tattoo: -
Best friend: Well... I don’t know. I have a lot of best friends.
Sport you played: If swimming counts as a sport then Swimming, if not then…
Basketball/Football/Tennis
Pets: -
Vaccination you remember: Tetanus vaccination
Concert: Robert Broberg
Love: Good question.
Alcohol you drank: Cider 

RIGHT NOW:
Do you eat: My tongue.
Do you drink: My saliva.
Are you going to do: Work on my school project.
Are you listening to: Tokyo Plastic.
You’re Awaiting: The weekend. 

YOUR FUTURE:
Want children: Maybe
Will you marry: I don’t think so.
Careers in mind: Actress or Musician.

WHAT’S THE BEST ABOUT THE OPOSIT SEX?
Lips or eyes: Eyes.
Hugs or kisses: Hugs
Shorter or longer: Much Longer
Romantic or spontaneous: Both
Nice stomach or nice arms: Both :3
Tattoos or piercings: I don’t know.
Sensitive or not: Something in between.
Flirt or relationship: None
Troublemaker or hesitant: A bit of a troublemaker but not too much. 

HAVE YOU EVER:
Kissed a stranger: No.
Lost glasses or contact lenses: No.
Had sex on the first "date": No.
Broken someone's heart: I hope not, but I think so.
Have you been arrested: No.
Dumped someone: Yes.
Liked your friend (as more than a friend): Yeh.

DO YOU BELIVE IN:
Yourself: Not always, but I have my moments
Miracle: Maybe, if I see one.
Love at first sight: Yes.
Heaven: No.
Santa: No.
Kissing on a first date: Maybe, depending on the person. Kissing is nice :3
Angels: I know some angels so yes. 


ANSWER HONESTLY:
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at the same time: Maybe in kinder garden but I think that’s okay. But no I haven’t.
Do you think it’s possible to remain faithful through life: Yes. If you can find that right person.
What can you really not live without: My friends and my family.
What so many do not know about you? That I can be really shy in real life but I can be
really straight forward online.

Back

And I'm back from Göteborg. I really love being in Göteborg, everybody's so nice. Like we say in Sweden, "Go'a Gla'a Göreborg" And everytime I leave I wish i could stay.
So MC-live... I don't think the event at Barkarby will be as good as the one in Göteborg because the people we worked with in Göteborg are so much more awesome then the ones in Stockholm.
But, the one thing i didn't like about the event in Göteborg was the damn sun! I've got a really wired sunburn and my mom said that I look like a penguin.
Anyhow take care people :]
Kisses

Göteborg

Going to Göteborg today :3
I've been longing the hole week for this! It's been so long seinse i was there o: 
Anyhow, Just wanted to give a update. I may update again when i get back. Just to let you know what was going on in Göteborg :]

Kisses

I Love Him

The feeling of incompleteness when he's far away.
The feeling of heaven every time he smiles.
The feeling of a iron lump in my throat every time he looks at me.
The feeling of melting every time he says my name.
The feeling of dying every time I see him and I remember that I can't touch him even if i try.

Haircut

I haffta cut my hair o.o and i have NO idea how to cut it O.O help? :3

Sick

uuh :[
I'm sick D: And I wanna die... I feel like hell and my head is spinning and is going to explode any minute. Just so you know. I want ice cream. o.o

Kisses

Tired

No real food since Friday lunch...  I'm not feeling so well...

Kisses

Poop

My head hurts and I haven't felt like writing anything lately. You thought i'd let you know that i'm still alive :]

Kisses

Soul-mate

Do you believe in soul-mates? I do. And I don't think that you can always find your soul-mate because they may live abroad, or they may already be gone, or somebody accidentally took your soul-mate before you did. And that means that there could be allot of people without soul-mates everywhere. I don't think that you'll know when you find your soul-mate before it's to late. And... Some people never find their soul-mates and some people have more then one. But all in all, I think everybody has at least one. 
I have a soul-mate. She's my cousin and I love her more then life. I honestly don't know what i would do without her. She really helped me through a really rough time in my life when I didn't want anything more then to just disappear.
Have you ever felt like just disappear? Yeah, I think almost everybody have felt that way sometime. And I think it's a natural part of life. I can still feel like disappearing some times. But then I think to myself and realice that there are people around me that I love who love me too and they would be really sad and hurt if I disappeared. I wouldn't want to hurt them.

So, think twice before you do something that you really wouldn't want to do.

Kisses

Relationships

(6.40pm) Hey everybody. Can somebody tell me why it's so hard with relationships? I don't know but my boyfriend practically lives here. And i don't want to feel this way but I'm really starting to get pissed of at everything he does. It's really sad if you ask me, because I really love him and I don't want to get tired of him and we'd brake up because of that. So we've decided that he should spend some more time at his place so that we can get some space and just do what ever we like.
Anyhow... I just wanted to get it down and just get it of my chest. I know you're not suppose to talk about your ex with you partner so I'm just going to do that here instated. One of my exes lived like 2h away from where I live and he felt that it took to much time to travel so he asked my parents if it was alright for him to stay with us. And they said okay. So, we were together for like 5 months and then I went abroad for 2 weeks and when I came back, he was like, a hole different person. I had no idea what happened. And like 1½ months later we broke up. And I don't really know why. And this was like... 2 years ago. And I still don't know why we broke up. And if I guess I'd say that we weren't  apart so much so when I went abroad, the love died. Or, my other theory, because here's the thing. When my ex broke up with me, he said "I want to be my own". And like, 2 weeks after we broke up, he was fooling around with another girl, so my theory is that he'd already been with here for those 1½ months and they had a fling when I was abroad. I'm just saying it could be a possibility, I don't know if that's the deal but, it makes it easier to forget about him.
So yeah, I know that you'll get tired of each other if you're together to much.

Anyway, desire is an understated feeling, and who doesn't like the feeling when you've been away from your partner a longer time and then get to see them again? I know I really like that feeling.

Kisses! (7.05pm)

New pictures :D

(3.45pm) Yey! I haven't taken a single picture of me fore like... a year or something. And now i have :D Yey me! (aren't I cute? :3)
So, i was out shoveling snow on my driveway. and... I really hope it stops snowing soon. I hate shoveling snow u_u
My brother would say that it's him doing all the work but he's using a snow thrower thingy and he just has to walk behind it. And I had to brush the snow of mom and dads car! And I'm kinda short (163 cm/5.3ft) so i can't really reach up on the roof of the car. Sometimes I really hate being short <_< but anyway.
I, like every other girl, like tall guys. And then i don't mean like, a bit taller then me I mean like a guy who's 6.3ft or something like that.
"What kind of homosexual sucks penis? That's dumb"
Anyway... (4.30pm) I took a coffee and a oats ball and watched some Olympic Games. I don't know what else to write...

Kisses

What's on your mind?

(10.50 pm) okay, this has been a bloging day. I just feel like writing down everything. Or, i actually feel like sitting down and talk to the world. But as allot of you might know, that's kind of hard. Especially when you have an annoying little brother and a boyfriend that has grown roots in your room.

Well i have Swifty so I'm good. He's really amazing, neither my brother or my boyfriend like him, I really wonder why because I think he's really funny. And, he's so... I don't know... He's not really cute but not extremely hot either, he's like... Not that guy you want to be friends with because he's so awesome but not that cute that you'd want to date him hand he's not that guy every girl run after and just drool on. Because he isn't that hot. He's just amazing. I don't really know how to describe him really. Any how, there's a link at the bottom of the post to a awesome video he's made and he's just... I could watch that video a 1000 times because he's so sexy :3

Okay, yes. I like him, do you have a problem?

Another thing is D'Nash. You remember them? Well I guess you'd only remember them if you live in Europe and are interested in the Eurovision Song Contest. They represented Spain in 2007 with "I love you mi vida" I've just recently started listening to them and I realized that they've done a cover on a Swedish song called "Amanda". And I wasn't a really big fan of the original song, but D'Nash's version of "Amanda" is so fucking good. I could listen to it all day! I just feel so happy when I listen to it. And, seince there's a Swedish version i know what they're singing about. Yeah i forgot to tell you right...? All of D'Nash's songs are in Spaninsh. And I have a thing for Spanish... You could blame a friend of mine for that. Lolz, I think He knows who I'm talking about :D Love you.

Ehm... So any ways... Damn I've been writing allot haven't I? And... I could write the hole night... Time... 11.00 pm.

I have to beg your pardon... Because all I can think about right now is Mat... if you'd feel like checking him out there's links to both his YouTube account at the bottom of the post.
Have you ever fallen in love with a... say a Artist or a actor/actress? I know I have. I'm not going to name any names because I know allot of you will judge me because of who i was in love with and I don't feel like being judged because of something so ridiculous. You could ask me, but don't be so sure I'd give you an honest answer.
It's just me to fall for every guy I see. Take Mat for example. I really like him. And, if I'd ever get the chance... Nevermind... xD

Okay, I'm really tired and I don't want to make such a long post.

Take care everybody. Love you! (11.30 pm)

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