...Hidden Message...

Just as I though everything was over, you came...
Offering to heal my broken heart...
Rewind time so that I wouldn't cry...
Delete everything and bring my smile back...
Only for me...
Never hesitating...

Thoughts running though my head...
Unable to look away I stare into your eyes...
Resting my head in my hand...
Never breaking our eye contact...
Ever so slightly you brush your lips upon mine...
Realizing that I wouldn't change this for the world...

I love you...

Wanting... Desire...

Wanting to run after you every time you leave... Wanting to hug you every time I see you... Wanting to kiss you every time our eyes meet... More and more... every day... even though I cant see you every day you're there in my heart... in my head... haunting me... killing me... the yearning desire for you to hold me longer...  the desire I have is slowly tearing me apart inside... I don't know anything about these feelings I have in side... All I have is this burning need to be beside you...
Am I in love with you? I don't know...

Missing you... Once again...

I've never touched you...
Yet I miss the warming feeling of your skin...
I've never hold you...
Yet my arms are acing for you to be back in them...
I've never kissed you...
Yet I long to feel your lips upon mine once again...
I never knew that I'd miss you like this...
I've only seen your face on a screen...
On a picture...
How can I miss you this much...
When I've never even met you...

Would you...?

What would you do if i lied on my bed crying?
Would you hold me and tell me everything will be alright?
What would you do if i hurt myself?
Would you stop me and tell me that i'm being stupid?
What would you do if i told you to kill me?
Would you refuse and tell me there's no chance in hell?
What would you do if i really wanted to die?
Would you force me to keep on living, tell me that there's a point in living and be by my side, watching over me so that i wont do anything stupid?
Or would you simply just turn around like you never knew me because you have your own problems to deal with?
Or maybe you'd tell me to keep on living because you cant live without me.
I wouldn't dare to kill you... because i love you to much... and i want to be with you every second of every day... and when we're apart i'd miss you with every fiber in my body...
Is it wrong to think the world would be better without me here?
There's so many questions... and i got no answers...
I just know that i'll keep on living, because i'm afraid of what i might miss... i want to set an example for the next generation to follow... and if i give up on my life now... they wouldn't have anything to follow...
It's hard being far away from you... it's hard to know that you're with someone ells in staid of me... Because i want to be with you so bad...
Then again... am i really good enough for you...? i wonder...
would you love me... like i love you... if you knew...

No more

Give me back those days that I had to cry over you
Give me back those days that I had to miss you
Give me back those days that I had to sit up and wait for you
Give me back those days that I had to spend alone because of you


I'll tell you now
No more crying, I'm done waisting my tears on you
No more missing, I have better things to do
No more waiting, it was already killing me
No more alone, now that I know I can move forward.


But before I leave, please, give me back my shattered heart
You don't deserve to keep the pieces.

Have you ever felt like dying?

Have you ever felt like crying?
Crying so bad that you'll cry until you don't have anymore tears to cry
Have you ever felt like flying?
Flying away so that nobody could catch you or make you do anything
Have you ever felt like lying?
Lying so that they would never know what's really going on inside of you
Have you ever felt like dying?
Dying so that you don't have to feel the pain that runs though your vains
Could you tell me?
Have you ever felt like dying so bad that you've stood on a building looking down at the tiny people so innocently concerned about their own daily problems that they don't have time to look up and notice that there's a person standing on top of a building ready to jump, ready to throw their life away because they cant stand the pain anymore.


Please tell me.... or is it just me?

Pain

You would not belive the pain I'm in right now...
Please... 
Make it go away...
The pain is riping me apart from the inside...
Please...
Make it go away...
You have to save me from this awful pain...
Please... 
Make it go away... 
You could never imagine the pain I'm in... 
Please...
Make it go away...
I cant take this any longer...

I Love Him

The feeling of incompleteness when he's far away.
The feeling of heaven every time he smiles.
The feeling of a iron lump in my throat every time he looks at me.
The feeling of melting every time he says my name.
The feeling of dying every time I see him and I remember that I can't touch him even if i try.